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As soon as I think someone has feelings for me, within a month, I realise that they're just playing around and act in the same way to other girls (even boys...?). It makes me feel sad for some reason. Maybe it's 'cuz I feel kinda happy when people have feelings for me, genuinely. But now I feel broken up. What a selfish bitch I am. I don't think I've ever tried to you know, flirt continuously before. I think it's kinda stupid and energy wasting. Why flirt with someone when they won't like you for your personality but rather, your forward-ness? That's what I've learned over the past year. Or maybe it's 'cuz I don't know how to flirt.

I haven't had a "crush" on anyone in ages. Maybe there has been attraction to some people but I still haven't found anyone who genuinely likes me for who I am. I'm just a person who is really hard to like.

:)

Mood: Cut up.