Friendship

I'm sure every blog needs a post on "Friendship". : )

Drifting. This word has a lot of different definitions. It may be that

Drifting refers to a driving technique and to a motorsport where the driver intentionally oversteers, causing loss of traction in the rear wheels through turns, while maintaining vehicle control and a high exit speed 

or

aimlessly wandering from place to place 

or

be in motion due to some air or water current

but in this case, I'm talking about drifting as in friendships drifting apart.

Regret. This word only has one definition.

a negative conscious and emotional reaction to personal past acts and behaviors. Regret is often felt when someone feels sadness, shame, embarrassment, depression, annoyance or guilt after committing an action or actions that the person later wishes that he or she had not done.

I'm sorry for what happened all those weeks ago. You were so kind to me, even though what I did to you hurt you, you still lent me your jacket. And I made it dirty. I didn't even apologise for that. In fact, I didn't even apologise for the bigger mistake that I made that night. Now we don't even talk. I really miss you! But it seems that after what happened, we drifted apart and I really don't think we'll be as close as we were before that night. I don't want to bring this back up with you. So I just don't talk to you. It haunts me, every night ... I just lie in bed, awake, thinking of all the mistakes I've committed in the past and it makes me so sad. Flash forward a few weeks, I told you that I thought I was depressed. Of course I wasn't depressed! It was just the guilt, remorse, regret, yet for some reason, I still thought it was appropriate to tell you about it. Being a guy, you thought you had to do something about it, fix it. Did you know, when a girl tells you her problems, she just wants you to be there and listen to her, she doesn't necessarily need you to fix them for her. You're just too nice to me, too nice to everybody. And everyone knows that, and love you. I was too embarrassed to say anything else after that. And so we drifted even more. And now I'm alone. Selfish, and alone. Of course, simply saying sorry won't do much but I'll say it anyway.