Do I lack personality?
My life feels empty.
Sorry God, I just ..
I ..
I feel so guilty coming back to You every time I lie, cheat or blaspheme Your Name.
And feel guilty for doubting you.
And feel guilty for asking for forgiveness.
I'm tainted with sin.
Society would deem it as marginally acceptable, but I know You hate it.
I hate society.
I hate how my mind can be influenced so easily.
I hate how I'm so curious about everything and everyone.
I hate how I treat people, as if I can't be bothered to talk to them ...
properly.
I hate how that's sometimes the case.

Why should I even cry, when I'm so well-off, when I'm being a selfish bitch, when I'm hiding so much from You, when I should be talking to You.
I'm nothing.
But I'm fine.
We'll continue this later, as it is 2:03AM.