I'm so sick of myself.
The cycle of guilt can be put this way:
I do something wrong;
then I feel really sad and guilty about what I did ...
... and then whoever is SUPPOSED to feel sad, feels sorry for me and tell me, it's okay, just don't do it the next time.
And guess what?
I do the exact same thing AGAIN.
I reckon I should just get over myself.
and STFU.