hahaha ..

after my rant about people talking to me ..
it seems like not many people wanna talk to me anymore.
or maybe it's 'cuz i always mysteriously disappear for hours on end and come back with one word replies.
well .. that's 'cuz there's always this evil monkey who keeps pointing at me with his finger. he lives in my closet. we like to have staring competitions. sometimes he wins but i usually win. we are rivals in staring. that's why it always takes a long time for me to come back to the keyboard. (in other words, i'm an attention seeker and i like it when people talk so me.)

i've been feeling pretty sick, the past few days. i have really big ulcers in my mouth and it hurts when i don't talk, and even more when i do talk. so i kinda try to stay introvert. my voice is also kinda gone. :/

i really dislike it when people flirt with other people in front of their boyfriends or girlfriends, just to get their attention.

i really dislike it when i talk to someone for the first time in a long time and they make things awkward by having the weirdo-awkward smile on their face and try to get away from me. what, do i look really different, now? do i have unnatural growth on my face? am i too fat? do i look like a bitch? am i too tall, and you're too lazy to stretch your neck up to talk to me? do i smell like dumplings? is it 'cuz i'm more of an asian now than the last time you talked to me? am i really ugly?
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what makes me that inapproachable? :(
i try to answer this question almost every minute of the day.

ARGH and my mum keeps asking me why i dumped her plastic bottle. IT'S A FREAKING PLASTIC BOTTLE THAT YOU BOUGHT FOR 2 BUCKS FROM A SUPERMARKET, YOU CAN A BUY A NEW ONE FFS. And she kept yelling at me about it, like "Why did you dump it, huh?" BECAUSE IT'S RUBBISH, FAROUT!

SHE EVEN HAS A NICE GREEN PIG BOTTLE THAT SHE COULD USE BUT NO, SHE INSISTS THAT SHE LIKES THE RECYCLABLE ONE.
And then she keeps disturbing me while I do chem and complains that I don't focus on what she's saying.
THIS IS CHEM, FAROUT, CHEM IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO MY FUTURE AS AN ASIAN CHILD. IN FACT, ANYTHING TO DO WITH SCHOOL IS IMPORTANT. IF YOU WANT ME TO GET 99.95 ATAR THEN OBVIOUSLY I NEED TO FOCUS ON CHEM MORE THAN YOGHURT.

arghh. i'm so angry these days. full of rage. i think i'm lacking iron or something because i'm always tired and annoyed, like a mother hen or something which can describe me.

AND DON'T YOU LAUGH AT ME, I actually do get ticked off at small things, like ants for example. Wait, ants are a big problem. Hmm, another example would be .. fat seagulls and pigeons .. or people whom I know who don't say hi to me when they see me and :( that makes me quite sad.